Firstly, I just want to mention that i am twenty nine years old and I am fat. Being over-weight has become a personal issue that i try to live with day in and day out. I find that because i am over weight people descriminate against me alot. For example,on this one occasion, when i was out getting groceries. I was eating a chocolate ice-cream while cashing in my goods, and there where two girls behind me in the line laughing and make fun of me. That was my most embarassing moment of all.
People thing i want to be fat. Infact, I want to be slim, fit and healthy in the way that I am supposed to be. But I cannot stop feeling hungry all the time. I will get up in the morning at eight o'clock and I will eat a full course breakfast of two eggs, bacon, cheese and salami with a healty tall glass of orange juice.
Then by eleven thirty, I feel very hungry again. The disappointing thing is that I have been feeding on snacks in between meals. I personal accept the fact that I am over-weight and i have an eating disorder. The same way an alcoholic is addicted to alcohol or a smoker is addicted to cigarrettes, is the same way I am addicted to food.
There was this one occasion, two years ago, when I decided that I am only going to eat healthy stuff that will help me to eventually lose weight and work out at least once per day. So I went online and I searched through a number of websites http://www.extremefitnessproducts.net/ and videos that will offer me a diet that will help me. However, most of the videos where commercialized and had celebrities in them, that already had beautiful bodies telling me to eat this and try that six times per day and you will be in shape in less than three weeks or you will see instant result or try one of our fitness products. None of that stuff actually helped. In fact, I gained an additional forty three pounds. So I ended up in a worst situation than what i was already in.
What i find most disappointing about these videos, is that most of them try to get you to follow a sudden strick diet and exercise routine. I personally thing that if a person like me who is over weight, cannot just spontaneously change my diet, it something that i would have to get into eventually with motivation and persistence, and the same would go for exercisizing.
When all else failed and the sky began to fall, I tried a number of fitness products advertised on television and on the internet. I tried weight loss drugs that my doctor prescribed to me, over the counter drugs and I even went as far as drinking herbal teas at least six times per day and i just kept on gaining weight, the more i tried to fight it, the more weight I put on.
Now, I am breathless, and when I say I am breathless I meant that seriously, my blood glucose level is pretty high to the point that my doctor is starting to worry. I am begining to feel pain in my joints and I pant heavily all day. I worry every day about the path which I am going down and hope that i will wake up tomorrow and be even one step closer to being fit and healthy, but i know that is just a dream.